TIRED

I did not drink and I did not gamble today. I have to remember that pretty much everything else gets a pass at the moment. But I was off tonight. Fidgety. Anxious. Bored. Thinking of drinking and the slots like I haven’t in days.

I think the connection is exhaustion. I felt almost bone tired today and, yet, did I stop? Rest? Meditate? Nap? No, no, no and no.

But I did overeat. And I did overspend. I did take it too far and kept adding things to the to-do list that didn’t get done, leading to guilt. I’m wondering if a 20 minute nap isn’t the magic answer next time?

I know sleep is calling me now. Day 11 safely under wraps, but I can’t help feel I could have done better today.